I woke up at 6:00 in the morning just like every other day washed my face opened a cup of ramen had it for breakfast felt like having a cup of coffee went searching for milk there is no milk thought I would have black coffee but didn't have coffee powder. so I put on my jacket took the keys for my bike and the bike won't start so at first I tried kick starting it but it won't start then I move my bike side to side a few times don't know why but it always works like magic, just like now .
I reached the super market I went inside there were very few people here because where I live is kind of a secluded area and there aren't many people living here .I walk in and I see my ex girlfriend and her boyfriend shopping it has been like a few months but I am still not over her so I just move away from them because don't want to feel sad. I used to love her a lot still do but then one day she came up to me and said lets break up I asked her what happened why so sudden and she said "we are not going to work out James" like what about my opinions and feelings in this relationship she just dumped me like it doesn't matter I asked her what I did wrong but she won't tell me what I did wrong and stopped going out with me. I still think about it some times and wonder what I did wrong but I have no idea as I was always nice towards her I always gave her respect and tried to find time for us whenever I could but then it ended up like this, maybe I was too involved in the relationship and shouldn't have worked on it so much haah…
I got out of my monologue when I heard a few shouts and crying sound and as I moved forward to check out it was I saw few guys in a black mask pointing a gun at the staff and asking them to take out all the cash and then I saw it ,something I wish I could un see I saw her crying next to her boyfriend he was dead he had a hole in his head I quickly hid myself and prayed that this shit will blow over quickly I don't want to be a dead body I just wanted a cup of coffee, me and my shitty luck. I was trembling and cursing my bad luck when someone else came in and said the guys inside need to hurry up ,just as he was about to go back outside to stand guard or to be on the look out or something he turned around and the he saw me (I knew at that moment I fucked up) my bladder was literally ready to burst when he stared at me with those eyes of his which were filled with killing intent I am going to give myself a thumbs up for not pissing myself. I don't know what his name was but he said that he caught a rat and asked me to come out with a playful smirk and just as I stepped out there were police sirens and the playful look he had on his face just vanished he cursed at me and shot me dead. I don't know why he did that maybe he misunderstood that I called the police or he was just pissed at the police I don't know but that brings us to were we are now a black space so black that I feel like this is how blackholes should look like .
This is how I died and I have been reliving my life for the about the nth time I lost count after it reached 1 million I don't have any control over my life I cant change anything its like watching a movie of your own life. i think this is hell and I am reliving my life because I wasted my time by not being productive and its really frustrating watching my life over and over again I am pretty amazed by myself that I didn't go crazy after all this time . I am giving myself a thumbs up for it .its time for me to go reliving my life again so bye_bye imaginary friends.