+Why are you still here?
I still have things I have to do?
+Are you not still suffering?
Of course, living is unbelievably hard at times.
+Is the pain really worth the effort?
I haven't decided yet. I'd like to think it's all for something.
+What if it is not? How can you be sure?
Hehe, I'm not really sure of anything honestly.
+How can you continue on even when you want to die?
I grit my teeth and remind myself I'm not alone. I'm not just living for me.
+How do you mean?
It's simple really, everyone I've connected with has a piece of me. If I leave I will never be able to look them in the eyes again.
+Are they really that important to you? Is it not easier to give up?
Yes, however I've never been one to take the easy way. I tend to go the most complicated route.
+You are strong, despite your heart being fragile.
You give me more credit than I deserve. I simply am too much of a coward to give up.
+Is that not a contradiction?
Yes well… I suppose you're not wrong.
+Elaborate on what you are thinking.
I'm afraid of what will happen to everyone else. Just the mere thought of being the reason they despair eats away at me.
+You seem to think of yourself as a burden? Does that not outweigh your fear?
+No. I have friends who choose to stay by my side. No matter how damaged I am. I want to continue to exist to see how everything plays out.
+Is that a selfish reason to continue living?
Perhaps.
+You do not strike me as the selfish type.
No, I'm normally meek and afraid of everything. Despite those flaws I try to allow myself breaks to do what I want. I allow myself to do what needs to be done.
+…
Do you have no other questions?
+…
So this is goodbye then.
+No, we will talk again. When we do I will ask you again.
Alright I'm looking forward to it.
+As am I. You interest me with your responses. I hope you do not change.
I can't guarantee I will be the same person I was. The thing about humans is we tend to grow with every new experience. My views may change and I may understand what previously vexed me.
+An answer I would expect from you. Farewell, till next time we meet my little friend.
Yes, I'll miss you looking down on me. I look forward to hearing all the new questions you have for me. Old friend til next we meet, I'll have the answers you seek on hand. Don't forget about me.
+I would never do a thing like that.
I love you
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