Alex stood quietly listening as she opens up, releasing all the pain and hurt that has been bundling up and eating her inside for all those years.
"I am so sorry, will you please forgive me Christina, when you brought me home here, there was never a day when your pantry was in shortage of anything.
It always had something to give if a need arises. Today my heartbreak to see it was empty, I have never told anyone but this house is still as beautiful as the first day you brought me home."
Hearing her crying wanting to go to her, but if I do she won't release everything. "I will never forget the way you treated me with such love and affection.
I know you are happy today when I enter your home, and I am glad I came, I wanted to see the house.
My heart will break when I have to return to my cottage but I must thank you. I have never told you this when you were alive, but I had always loved here, but this house is no longer my home.
Christina, I cannot pay you for helping me in my difficult times, but I am returning the favor you did for me by helping out Alex.
I want you to know I have a very special family now, who loves me very much just like you did, but I still miss you very much. Many thanks for all your gifts and the home you provided for me."
Alex listens to her words silently, pondering within, 'That was why you wanted to be outside by yourself, but my presence had disturbed you.
All your pain and anger that had bundled up these last four years is now released, or has it awakens?'
Trying to open the door but she had it still locked, hearing her still crying, 'I should have known she had no intention of going upstairs.
That's why she insisted for I to leave her bag downstairs. She is still afraid of me, that hurt and fear I have planted in her heart, have taken deep roots and it has surface tonight causing her grief.
Hearing as she continues crying, Alex now realized how gruesome his mistake has been, and by bringing her here it has open up old wounds.
It will take a lot of time to get her to trust him again, or for her to realize that he have changed and have so many regrets for all his shortcomings.
Knocking the door, "Diandra, I realized that being here is very painful for you, please don't cry. I understand how you are feeling.
Now let me know if you have changed your mind and want to return to the cottage?
Knowing now how you feel, Diandra I understand and that is not a problem. I will take you back tomorrow, I don't know how to say anymore how much I am sorry for the hurt and pain I cause you.
I have failed miserably, so anything I could do to make it up, just say, and if it is within my means then I will make that extra sacrifice.
I am very sorry you were sad that the kitchen is empty but I don't cook, so making groceries will be just throwing away good money.
I don't invite guest in my home, but this I promise you, when the house is finish painting, I will ensure that it always has something to offer someone to drink if they visit.
The only way I will be making groceries is if you were to return home. Once more I am very sorry and let me know of your decision early, so I will stop the men from coming to start the work."
In his room Alex sits on his bed, shattered and broken yet relieved, "Now, maybe she will start afresh and so will I."
Emptying his bag with all the dirty laundry then went and shower and change. Replacing clean clothes in his bag and racking his uniform that needs to go to the dry cleaners.
Shining his shoes then rest his bag and shoe side by side. Once more in his bed Alex took his bible and read from the book of Philippians Chapter four, verse six.
"But in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your request be made known with God.
And the peace of God which passeth all understanding shall keep your heart and mind through Christ Jesus."
Humbling himself Alex gets on his knees, "Lord, I am not going to worry or frustrate myself, because I know you are in full control.
That first day I returned to You, You told me to acknowledge you in all my ways. I did not expect her to invite me into her home, yet she did.
I thought she didn't care but she still does, if it's a little bit. I didn't think she will return with me home here and she is here.
So I know Your favor is with me, I thank You so much and I am going to continue trusting You. Lord, I know that you could open that door of reconciliation for us once more, so I could make the wrong right.
Tonight she said she wants to have a big family, and I also desire the same, so our dreams are the same.
I also heard she has a family that loves her, yet she said she is alone. If it is your will Lord, let us share those dreams together, I ask all these mercies in Jesus' name amen."
By five Alex was up and already dressed, taking his bag and the laundry basket with him.
Resting the basket in the laundry room then dock his head in the room, seeing the door was unlocked, then leave for the office. Hoping with his whole heart that she will stay.
Entering the reception area before his office, seeing the driver and many new recruits waiting along with a few of the Senior Officers and his two Senior Sergeants that does patrol with him.
Bidding them all a good morning, then went to his office. Seeing that Melisa had already prepared the roster. Alex called his two Patrolling Sergeants, placing a roster in each of their hand.
Then he went and place one on the notice board, doing a roll call with the new recruits then instruct the two Patrolling Officer to take them and drop them of at their location and be back here by eight, knowing he should be ready by then.