With nothing much to do for the time being, Rosa tries to meditate as advised by the system. The system had also told her that envisioning her body (i.e. rose) while meditating will help her in the remembering process. As she stays rooted in the ground, she tries visualizing her body and thinks hard to recall her memories.
{{{She will be called Rosa from now on. Rosa is easier to spell and use than Nasrin. It is also easier to pronounce. I asked one of my friend to read this novel, and she said that she couldn't pronounce the name properly. So, for convenience sakes, Rosa will be used from now on with some exceptions.}}}
Slowly by slowly, she falls in a deep state of meditation. If she could see herself right now, she would definitely notice a huge silhouette of her previous human form and an equally huge silhouette of a gigantic rose flower behind her, overlapping with each other. Unable to know this, she feels a tug at her soul as she finds herself awoken.
She opens her "closed eyes" and finds herself looking at a small plant stem with a red rose bud in the same place that her huge rose flower body was. She feels that she isn't using her soul vision ability so she turns to look around and notices a holographic hand which turned out to be her hand. At first, she is stunned and unable to react at her current situation. Then as her thoughts wander into the danger zone, she gets scared. She looks at herself: her hands, legs and everything in between and realizes that she not only has a transparent holographic body but she is also FLOATING in air.
She calms her mind in order to think clearly and remembers the tug at her soul. She then returns her focus to the small rose flower bud in front of her. Then a realization hits her. She is actually in her memory, reliving through the 10,000 years of her memory. All of a sudden, a different kind of panic sets in.
"Am I going to have to relive those 10,000 years? But the system told me that, it would not take too long, at most a week."
"Well, what else can I do now anyway. Let's see where this goes. If reliving another 10,000 years is what it is gonna take to be free, then that is what I'll do."
{{{Notice that she is talking to herself as if she isn't there alone. This is because she had to invent ways to not go crazy during her previous life. The torture, the loneliness and her unfortunate hellish life would make anyone go crazy to the point of killing oneself. The fact that she could hold out until Admon came along as a shoulder for her to lean on, is already amazing. So, it isn't surprising for her to develop a way of speaking to herself in order to keep her sanity. After all, there are even cases of people developing multiple personality disorders. In severe cases, some even become an empty husk devoid of any emotions to avoid the pain.}}}
As she thinks along those lines, her determination grows and she focuses back on her current lives' past self. She sees that the bud is about to bloom. As the rose blooms, she notices that the rose is red instead of blue. But she doesn't get the chance to think anymore as a connection develops between her and the rose. She seems to be able to understand and know all the feelings of the rose.
Currently, she feels happy to be born as her body takes in the air enriched with energy. She has no idea who she is, where she is or what she is but her instincts scream to her: Take more energy. Day by day, she continues to live and be enriched with the wondrous energy. She doesn't know how long it has been since the day that she has bloomed. But she finds herself rich with vitality which seems to keep on increasing. Then one such day, she suddenly develops a string of subconscious thought and experiences an invigorating feeling. This string of thought is able to do not much but feel the energy around her. Thus, that is what it does and the days seem to pass like the pages of a book turn themselves during the windy days.