I feel so numb on the inside,
As my feelings have disappeared.
I can barely smile or laugh,
I had to act it all out,
When I wanted to cry the most.
I lost my battle this time,
I am not able to fight,
I am at my breaking point.
I just want to be gone,
Walk away from people and hideaway.
Close the doors and be inside a shell again.
It was my fault that I bought people into my life,
If I had shut them out,
I would have not gotten hurt,
And they would have not known me.
They would have not gotten to know,
A shitty person likes me.