Sound of critters and whistle coming from the night wind could be heard as the moonlight shines upon my curtain illuminating half of me, and my Goddess opposite of me with puffed up cheeks.
"Wouldn't that hurt a little if you told me what happen down the dungeon?" She stares at me as our faces are only centimeters away.
"Uhm..." I don't know what to answer and gulp with awkward face.
"You, don't want to?" She asks again and this time, our nose are touching; small breath away as she lean forward
"Its... I don't think it suit your taste" I scratch my head and look away.
"I don't care. I wanna know and as your Goddess atleast I have the right to know, yes?" This time she presses me down, and spoke. Damn it, are women all like this? Pressing an unarmed men and ask them what they wanna hear? Justice please? Is what I wanted to say.
But then, I only nodded as I knew she wouldn't stop until I explain even if it takes forever.
It was at this time that she already explained what was happen after we've been discovered by Hestia Familia at 39th floor; Thanks to Xenos Marie, guiding them secretly with her unique voice to attract adventurers, along with other powerful Xenos who secretly pull the monsters aggro away from them as they descend.—though none of them knows that, not until the Xenos themselves explained to me on the later date.
With that, the rescue team arrived where we was. Though that level floor isn't a threat for me. I understand that a couple of level 2 normal Adventurer wouldn't dream to venture in that deep floors outside of an expedition as the dungeon are too unpredictable.
But all is well as they meet up with Ryuu and the unconcious me not long after and went out alive.
As for why I'm not in Dian Cecht clinic the moment I open my eyes. Its because I only lose my conciousness because of 'her'.
That elf choke me to death! She should have to pay, did she? Or not...
I don't know...
After that, I explain to my Goddess what was happen and about the Xenos and the Thanatos and Rudra Familia's secret tradings.
There, I finally learned that this two is a part of 'Evilus Cult' that the main goal is the destruction and annihilation of the whole Orario. The Familia responsible for that elf's flame of revenge; so thats why my gut feel is kicking me everytime I encounter that Familia.
That aside
Why did she knew that by the way? Why did my Goddess knew that in which all I know is the Evilus and not the Familia affiliation it belongs? well, I'm sure she has her reason why she knew this kind of thing and as for why, I don't wanna pry anymore.
"But you haven't yet to explain why you're with that elf from Mia's Tavern!" She pouted in aggrieved, and murmur the word 'unfair'.
I bit my lips and the guilt crashes me, and then started to tell the story and flash back for a bit from the 18th floor where we pay the fine from breaking the rule, 'Gods should not enter the dungeon' in which half of our assets blown by the wind called 'Guild' from that time.
Back to present then
"That..." Artemis-sama shuddered and at the same time, speechless and couldn't hide the loneliness from her eyes
"I'd never thought, that was actually happen. So, Astraea surely is in pain ever since then"
"You. . . met her?" I ask in surprise
She nod, "Uhm, according on your story, I met her after her Familia's annihilation. So thats why she wanders alone and return to her normal and stoic self back from heaven" Artemis-sama hold her mouth who are still atop of me and restrain not to cry.
This whole time, even after the moment I started the story, she didn't give me any leeway to stand back up and instead nailed me here with her light weighted body.
After that, I continued... all of my knowledge about Ryuu's past, why she'd become a blacklist and more until the moment we've been alone from the last time. Welp I only tell her that we've been eaten whole by that Amphisbeana. Speaking of which. That monster, are still alive out there. But thats the story for the later.
—and I'm not sure if its unfair for Ryuu that I told them all to my Goddess. But, like what she said. Gods have the rights to know the Adventure of their children, so without any second thoughts I told her all of what I know and what happened—minus I and that elf's awkward experience together—of course! or the Goddess of the Hunt's wrath and jealousy would befall upon me for sure
"From your story... so what emerge isn't a normal calamity-class monster at that time" she then continued staring at me
"——W-what calamity?"
"You... didn't I tell you not to blindly use that borrowed power? Calamity after calamity are always popping up inside the dungeon because of that skill of yours, what if the next time what you summoned is on par with 3 great quest or greater? Could you stop that from happening? No... not that... I hate to say this but... what if... you died there!? What happen to me after that? How can you compensate this loneliness?" Shivering, she dug her face right beside my head and whimper nonstop, I at the same time, hold the back of her head.
'I haven't yet to repay your kindness, so I'm not going to die. Not yet' with that thought, I slowly caress her blue hair.
A few moments of silence come and go in which she's also the one who breaks it
"You know" she then whispered, "You were quite a selfish"
"Huh?!" I heard that exact same word again, 'selfish'. Thats why I am confused
"Yeah, you were selfish... you disregard others feelings because of your own selfishness"
"W-wait. . .Could you elaborate it more clearly, my Goddess? I don't quite comprehend what it meant"
She sigh, "You, always charge forward without any concern of yourself and/or consideration of others feelings of what happen to you. And you always said a word that you think is right and then saying 'its not my decision to make but yours alone' and walk away as if you didn't even care, or even changing the topic as if you didn't said a word"
She explained but my mind went amiss and the word Selfish, floated up. Is that how deep that word is? Am I really selfish?
"Zetta-kun, is it okay if I always hug you? Everyday and Everynight?" Deep in thought, I snap back to reality after she change the topic out of the blue.
"Why didn't continue your explanation first? And aren't you always sneaking into my bed everynight and hug me everytime you sent me away? Whats the difference?" I ask and at lost.
"That and this are different you know?... W-well, I'm sure you won't understand them no matter how many times I hammer them through that thick skull and bird brain of yours" she smile softly.
"B-bird brain!? Grr... thats too much ain't it?" I grunted. For how far I know, I'm not dumb. Maybe when it comes to this kind of thing, Yes I can understand how dumb I was. Afterall I'd never or even try to find an opposite gender in a romantic way since I prefer being alone. Especially before meeting that all girls guild. But then again, isn't a bird brain is the biggest insult I'd ever receive?
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The next day arrived and our departure is today. And oh, I receive an alias, and well, what should I expect, it was a [Barbarian] in the end.